All's Good

Saw Dr. B yesterday and everything looks good. She confirmed that I do not have gestational diabetes. I got to see and hear Lily's heartbeat and even got a picture of her profile, but it came out looking really dark, so it's not that visible when I scan it in. But I go back for another appointment and official sonogram on September 12th. I will ask for lots of pics and post them. I'm so curious to see how big and how long she is already. Babycenter.com has said she's about 14 inches from head to foot. I cannot imagine that!!!

We've had houseguests from England for the past week, and this morning, they left. It'll be nice to get the apartment back in order. It's amazing how 2 extra bodies can create such a messy-feel in the apartment, even though our place is pretty big. I do not miss having roommates at all. Not that they were bad houseguests, but it's nice to have the place to ourselves again.

Mauzner's in town. He's lost like 60 lbs and I officially weigh more than him! (I've gained 25 lbs so far - I'm up to 150!) He's been sober since January and is currently training for a marathon that'll take place in November. It's nice hanging out with another fellow sober friend at a bar for once. We're all going to Louis' place in Hampton Bays this weekend for Labor Day. Really looking forward to a day off on Monday. I've been feeling really tired lately and not sleeping as much. Climbing up and down the subway stairs and the stairs to my apartment are kicking my ass badly. It's only going to get worse so I just have to take it slower I suppose.

3 Months To Go!

I know I've been very bad at updating this blog, but I'm going to blame being sick for over a week on my true laziness. I'm feeling 110% better now. I've posted 2 pics. The top one is dated 8/21/07, and the bottom is today, 8/27/07. I'm getting big!!! Lily is scheduled to arrive in our world on November 27th - exactly 3 months away. I cannot friggin' believe it. She wants to come out NOW I tell ya. She's moving around like crazy. Sometimes her movements are quite violent! Just yesterday, I was laying on the couch, looking down at my belly and I saw it moving around in ripples. It was absolutely wild.

I had another dream about Lily being born. This time, when she came out, she looked exactly like James, with slighty Asian features, and with a light brown bowl haircut. It was creepy cuz it was like James' head superimposed on a baby's body. I think she even had some stubble on her face. Gross.

I see Dr. Brustman on Wednesday and I'm really looking forward to it. I miss her. She was on vacation when I went in for my gestational diabetes test (which, I'm assuming is negative since I haven't heard back from them) so it's been about a month since I've seen her. I want her to tell me how big Lily is right now. And I'm curious as to how much I weigh, also. The weather is cooling off slowly, and I am in dire need of some fat pants.

Officially 6 Months Pregnant

I am 25 weeks today, which means I'm 6 months pregnant. And I'm also feeling very sick right now. I think I might've caught a slight cold when I was away at the Catskills. First it was just sneezing and now it's a full blown sore throat. My head's heavy and I'm just feeling funny all over. I called the doctor and she said to take Tylenol and gargle w/ salt water. Done. Let's hope I feel better though. It's no fun being sick AND fat!!! Naptime...

My First

I haven't been writing much because there really isn't much to report about Lily. So, I guess I'll use this space as a mini-diary, too.

Last Wednesday, James took me on a surprise b-day date. We nibbled on tapas at N in Soho and then saw La Vie, at the South Street Seaport. It's a cabaret filled with lots of incredible acrobatics. It was AMAZING. I absolutely loved it. I continue to be surprised at how well James knows me and what I truly love, but I really shouldn't, should I? I mean, we've been best friends for nearly 9 years. But I was still touched at how thoughtful this present was.

Thursday, I had my gestational diabetes test. This is a type of diabetes that women can develop during pregnancy. It happens between 2-7% of expectant mothers. There aren't really any symptoms that aren't considered normal during pregnancy (i.e. thirsty, hungry, tired, frequent urination) so that's why they test the glucose in your blood between 24-28 weeks. I'll call on Wednesday to find out the results.

Friday, we rented a car and headed on up to the Catskills to stay with Tom, Kate (not from Hollywood) and their 2 adorable girls. Parenting 101. James learned how to change a diaper full of shit. (Good boy.) And we both learned how challenging it can be to have 2 small children close in age. Especially when one is approaching 2 years old, has her molars growing in, and may be a bit surprised at a new baby that just appeared in her life a few months ago. All in all, it was a lot of fun. I give Tom and Kate a lot of credit for how much patience they have. (All parents, really.) The weather was beautiful and I decided to ring in my 32nd birthday with a glass of red. It was DEEEEEELIIIIISH. I haven't had a drink since March 19th and I thoroughly enjoyed this one, as you can imagine.

I'll take a pic of my belly and post it soon.

24 weeks

Here I am at 24 weeks pregnant. Lily has been doing some serious kicks today. She always moves a lot around 4pm. Maybe it was that slice of chocolate cake?

Yesterday I went to visit a dear, old friend of mine, Melissa, who lives in Connecticut. I finally met her 2nd son, Jack. He just turned a year old. I met Mattie, her first, when he was just born. When I visited Melissa, she literally threw him in my arms. I remember feeling very frightened. I didn't know what to do. I think that was the first newborn I've ever held. He is 5 years old now and looks exactly like Melissa. That freaked me out a bit. They are living the suburban life, that's for sure. A beautiful home tucked away in the woods by a lake. Surrounded by live turkeys, roosters, you name it. Very serene. And very unlike the life I lead in NYC. I'm sure once Lily pops out, my mindset will change. I'll probably want other things in life. But I've always resisted the thought of trading in my city life for the suburbs. I mean, it's really nice to escape every once in a while, but I've always been a city girl at heart. I love the chaos. Let's see how I feel in a few months time. I'm sure the real chaos will just begin.

Late Night

Jewels, Chris, and Brit strolled into town and we had dinner at La Esquina last night. It's always so amazing to see Jewels, as I feel like I relate to her more now that I'm pregnant. We share this unconditional love for each other. All 3 of us. I've known her since she was a mere 19 years young! She's only 27 now, but it's still 8 years of friendship. She was talking to Lily a lot last night. At one point, Jewels was sitting to my left, leaning into my belly and saying who knows what, and the next thing we knew, Lily shifted entirely to the left! My right side was flat, and there was this bulge on my left side! It was crazy! We got home very late for me - nearly 1am. And then we HAD to watch So You Think You Can Dance because we're embarrassingly obsessed with that show. So, didn't get too much sleep but it was worth it. Can't wait to do nothing tonight. My how times have changed.

Can't Sleep

It's 3 in the morning and I woke up because I'm starving, so I've decided to make some ramen noodles. I had one of those hormone-enraged days today. I woke up and it just felt like it was going to be one of those days: I was hot, the hair was limp, and I just couldn't decide on what to put on my new round body. I felt VERY large and unattractive. Women have these days every once in a while, but it's way more intense when you're pregnant - and those damn hormones don't help at all. I got home from work after 7 and James was sweatin' in the kitchen. I think he asked how my day was and that's when the tears just came flowing. (I think I scared him.) I just needed to cry and tell him how gross and unattractive I felt today. There was absolutely nothing he could've said to make me feel better. I wasn't fishing for compliments. I just needed to bitch and let it all out. That was my first outburst I've had since I've become pregnant. I'm sure it won't be the last.

P.S. Picture was taken yesterday. Today I'm 23 weeks pregnant. I need new maternity clothes. I hate everything I own.

P.P.S. Lily's very happy with the ramen. I think I'll be able to fall asleep right now.